Reclaiming My Voice

At one point in this journey, I chose not to be heard. And I found so much peace there. It is hard not to want to turn around and retreat back into the peace of my life.

I much prefer the quiet spaces. I am an introvert, but I am realizing that the quest must continue.

Unfortunately, I tried to record a video to upload to this blog, but it was too long. The video was just a recording of my voice explaining this. There is flow within the path of my career. I am also connecting with some amazing people. And I truly feel zero effort to be on that path. There are other parts that require effort, like school and building out a new program. Sometimes, too much effort, school is an energy vampire.

Unfortunately, that leaves me a bit perplexed regarding how this quest looks.

I am consuming too much energy explaining my story or who I am, so there was no benefit. Because of that, I have to minimize its effect. My children still require lots of my energy, rightfully so. In addition to everything else I get to do. There is not much energy left to put towards this epic quest.

And I blame it all on that peace. The peace I had. Before returning on this epic quest. Add the flow to my career, and I feel perplexed.

I am staying on the apps, but I have not been swiping. I will eventually add apps and people as I gain more capacity.

In the meantime, as I build out my BHAG and other stuff, I will do my best to connect with people while this quest continues.